Update

To be honest I forgot about this blog for a few weeks..too many blogs and forums, games, admin and what not to keep updated... Well, what can I say for this week.. Had some new 'awakening' feelings that wasn't all too nice to feel... I decided on Monday morning that, since hubby is away for the whole week and I have no pressing job to do, I'm going to really try to relax the whole week and do absolutely nothing - not a very 'healthy' thing I experienced..but anyway...so i discovered that I downloaded the Roswell series more than a year ago but never gave myself the time to watch it..yes, you guessed right..I lied in bed and watched the whole 3 seasons day and night for 3 days non - stop.. it was fun but at the same time I got lost in memories and thoughts of days gone by in between watching the goings on in this fascinating series.. the actor being so young and gorgeous didn't help much to improve my nostalgic mood, rather enhanced it a lot..hahaha..reminding me of days gone by when I also was young, pretty and full of laughter, fun and the joy of being alive.. when I fell in and out of love and experienced the sweet first stirrings of young love and the excruciating pain of losing it..just to fall all over in love again the next week.. some bittersweet memories kept on forcing themselves on me and I got this longing for those long gone days..why oh why do we need to age so damn quickly? I'm only 45 but feel like I lived a whole lifetime already... feel like I've lost something precious and just can't quite put my finger on what exactly it is that I lost..yearning to find it just one more time?